if you can bear me I'm fucked up in the head more confused than anything im straight male and i love cigarettes sex and pirn i don't do drugs and I'm losing my mind but so far as for me being someone to follow I'm not him I'm just waiting to die nothing else i can't help myself so I can't help anyone else i really tried but I'm tired and i believe in God but it's to hard for me to understand my mind is so far gone and cursed